Sometimes thats how it is.
I have fought for almost two years to have you as my own, and selfishly I am having a hard time letting go, I pressed so hard, I got on my knees and begged to god that one day you would be mine. I gave up two years of my life to make you as happy, graceful, and pleased as possible.
Not that I want to considered that bad thing, but all i all I see it now as time i could have spent working to better my own life, and to look for something else to have and hold.
While you prosper, I fail
While you are happy, I yell
its something I have been through before being pushed away, because im not good enough to be more than some guy who you can talk to but never be with but you know what thats cool
because you will find out, trust me you will, you will find out there is no other man out there that will treat you how I did, he wont put up with your shit, he wont cook for you, or court to your every asking. He wont watch and enjoy the same shows you do, he wont help you work on your car like me, he wont drive 30 minutes when you are sick just to bring you some soup.
He wont massage you everynight even if his hands are brittle and worn, he wont sit with you while you do your hair, or have fun shopping with you. He wont give a shit about the emotional ties only the sex and lies.
He wont gasp at your beauty, his heart wont flutter every fucking time he sees you.
and when he hugs you his world wont be made.
Its sad when you do so much for someone and fight so hard just to get looked passed like youre just another brick in the wall.
Its sad how much someone WHO CARES and treats you with so much respect and love gets such a shitty ending
but you know what thats okay
because one day you will realize what a bitch you where to the guy who loved you more than any other man will
the guy who knew when you needed something, was there when you hurt, he would get up at anytime whether he wanted to or not to do anything you asked him.
the guy who would run to the store to get you milk at 3 am, the guy who would stay up all night and day to finish a project for you. the guy who would cuddle with you and never want sex
that guy you know him?
its sad you dont realize how much he cares for you, and all the things he has done to even try to get one date, but he isnt good enough for you
his looks arnt good enough, his money, his cars, his clothing, who the fuck knows
he just wont ever be good enough FOR YOU
but for some reason he still tries so hard to please you even though he knows he will never ever even get just one date
I think thats called LOVE and he has a hard time saying or admiting to anyone that he loves them and he confessed to you, thinking it would be worth his while, but it just proves he is right, and that he should have never opened up
Anyways im done I do love you im sorry i cause oyu so much pain, i cant say anything more
you are happy im glad for you
but it sucks on my part because i just feel like i wasted so much time on a loss cause
and you dont even give a shit which is okay because you shouldnt
Its all good mayne. We are your friends and its ok to vent here. Lots of people do that. Its gonna take awhile for you to move on, but once you do, you'll feel better and hopefully you can find someone that is better than her and treats you very well.
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Yeah well she wants to be friends still and I dont think I can manage that. . . she treats me like every other person she knows now, and thats not right because we have been through so much together its like she is some highschool chick
ugh I dont know what to think
she acts like she didnt do shit
I made her who she is, so I guess its my fault
sadly, i worked my ass off for her i built her car i stayed up for nights on end building custom brackets and rattling my brain for racing seats, and her carbon fiber trunk
an she acts like i did nothing. which is funny cause she is all big in our car scene now
and she NEVER EVER gives me credit for doing the work
Jealousy you could say, and i would say yes, i think I deserve a little credit for the pain i went through
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